Thursday, November 27, 2008
hey, im feeling very down right now.dealing with a loss of a friend (he didnt die okay?) and im going to KL in a few hours time.
im too sad that im gonna leave Singapore today. i cant believe it.
i was spose to go KL on friday, but then plans changed so yea. im leaving everything behind today, and looking forward to a new life.
before i go, im sorry if i did anything wrong to u guys.
gdnite everyone! :]
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12:32 AM
Monday, November 24, 2008
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12:59 PM
hey peeple.
REDCAMP 5 was the BOMB!
from 19 nov-21 nov, i was letting my hair down at the camp sia.
i had fun overall. with the hip-hop dancing to the tours around Ngee Ann Poly and to the ZOUK thing. i had 3 superb days with the whole NINJA clan. well, NINJA won for the 1st day. on the last day, we were announced as the WILDEST TRIBE! i shouted like hell for the 3 days and i still haven't lose my voice. how irritating is that!? haha.
there were many SLs who were gerek kakis. i love all the SLs. and the cheers are still stuck in my head since. and i made many new friends.
will a mention a few here-SYARIF,SYAZWAN,FARID,RADI,SHARIFAH,
MASTURA,MAISURAH,DANIEL(St. Gabriel guy),KIERAN,RAVIN,SAIFUL.
im sorry if i didnt mention some friends here, terlupa ah. :]
*im happy for ana and someone. they are compatible. he's a gentleman, ana. grab him before other girls want him. wish you guys the very best yea. *
till now, i dont feel like having to do anything with guys. the more i know guys, i felt that they hurt me more. i dont know whats wrong ah. but just an advice to guys, dont contact 2 girls at the same time. it could hurt both parties. i got to know 2 stories like this recently. it really hurts me that girls always have to be the victims of unappreciative guys. whatever it is, im living this life as a normal girl.
anyway, i went to BOOKFEST just to see TAUFIK BATISAH!!! he is HOT to the MAXX!
i dont know why i was so fanatic that i even bought the new album just to get his autograph and to take picture with him. will upload the pics soon. but for now, i have only a few REDCAMP 5 pictures.
TOODLES!
love,
ain
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12:34 PM
Friday, November 14, 2008
will be updating later on christianisation! :]
i find that it is an interesting topic to share with everyone here.
*WARNING!You guys will find yourself tangled with your life and your beliefs.*
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12:39 AM
Thursday, November 13, 2008
hey.wanna update on something that i just realise about my life.
my life as i know for 16 years is one rollercoaster ride.
it had not been better and neither had it been any worse.
i felt suicidal recently, due to just some minor stuffs.
but i am not gonna post some 'EMO-SHITS' down here, aight?
no worries. :]
well, i thought that being 16 is the most wonderful thing to experience.
everyone who read this might be 16 or even, less or more than 16.
everyone will go through this age whereby everything will change so much, that you will find yourself twisting your life. and i mean, really TWIST.
everyone make mistakes and you can never find a person who doesn't.
i expected life to be much more clearer and better, but what i am experiencing right now is something much more dull and not better.
i am sorry if i am gonna hurt anyone here kay.
hmm. i felt that i am too naive/gullible to everyone.
i just could not bring myself to trust anyone anymore, after what that has happened this year.
i found myself, sometimes, trapped in the past.
i wanted to forget about my EX but then, he came back to me this year.
i didn't know what to expect from him.
i was blinded by L-O-V-E. then, after the usual contacting each other, i found myself contacting a totally different EX. he's changed so much. i even felt that he was just playing with my feelings. i could not bring myself to contact him anymore(it's been 2 days already!). i felt threatened by his presence and i was pressurised by the thought of a third party. guess we're just not meant to be yea? :]
i also thought that as the sec-four year is coming to an end, everyone will be super-close to each other.
it didn't happen to me though. had two fights with two group of friends this year. i even felt that i did not even existed in the two friendships. i was an invincible figure in the whole misunderstanding.
i said i was sorry but no one heard how sorry i was for myself. i miss NAJA, IRA, AMEE and LULU.
i hope that time will stop so that i can re-build this friendship to be strong once again.
then, i found out that i am trapped in the past again.
i'm not saying that my friends change but, it's just that i want to see the old NAJA, IRA, AMEE and LULU.
where we all will hangout and laugh till our throats get very dry. sadly to say, i can't make people change for me and neither will i ask them to change. i just want a simple request from you guys that we will make damn sure that we will hangout more in the future.
and to ANA, i treasure this friendship more and more after every meet-ups and sharing of stories.hehe.
i just want to tell you how happy i have been being with you. you were there for me when everything and everyone left. i am so thankful to GOD that i have you as a friend. i assure you that i will never let you down.
ANA, just know that i will be gladly there for you. anytime and anywhere! :]
anyways, i have been having this migraines in the evening. and sometimes, i feel like throwing up.
gosh, i feel like the sickest person in Singapore. hehe.
AND! there have been these 3 days which i wanted to collect my passport at ICA with my mom.
the first one, my mom said she was too lazy to go out. the second one, it was too late already as the passport collection closes at 4.30pm. and the third one which was TODAY (13 NOV) did happen. BUT my mom didn't ask me to bring my IC along. thus, it was a wasted trip there. and the fourth one will happen TMR (14 NOV). must DIE-DIE take my passport tmr! haha.
okay, i will stop this non-stop, long and draggy post for now.GOODNIGHT PPL!
love,
ain
[0035am]
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11:40 PM
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
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12:15 PM
Thursday, November 6, 2008
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12:25 PM
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
hey peeple.like ohmygosh, o levels will end soon.
like next week on the 11th of november.like hello?...
hha.gosh i sound like a bimbo.hehe. :]
i've been feeling so the happy goober u know?
ana says that i was very bubbly+mentel ytd.is that spose to be good or not?
hmm, anyways.. i have this strong feeling in me that i'm so gonna fail POA and Math.the negative thoughts started this week or so.but however so, I have back-up plans after the O Levels result are released.
uhm, and ya on the 11th of nov, Im gonna jolly-jolly to the max.
i have two dates on that day!! haha. MENTEL-LANS!! :P
the first date will be with my BF. and then, the second date will be with my friend. hehehs. jangan banyak tanye ok who's who..
tengok movie cerita hantu.nyehehe!haha.
well its best to watch horror movie with a guy. girls, if you know what i mean.
guys, dont take advantage eh. haahaa.
eh, later i'll update u on hari raya pics with the gang.hee.
hm, well i got to contact back with NAF but i dont think we're gonna go into rship or anything. so dont assume by looking at the pics ok?
NAF changed a lot.he wasn't the same guy i knew before. and i guess, he contacted me back bcos he's feeling lonely after the break-up. i was not expecting him to come back to me, too.cos i thought his rship with her will last as i knew they really love each other. but again, ppl change.
talking about ppl changing, let me give advice to u ppl.
DONT EVER CHANGE FOR YOUR LOVED ONES!
*except for attitude* but dont ever change the way u look or anything for someone else. and dont ask someone to change for u, unless their attitude really sucks to the max. this is my own personal experience.
i was really mad when that someone asked me to change the way i look and the clothes i wear. to me, it was plain rude. but we talked about it, and i guess we're okay now.
hmm, I'll admit to u guys that i have a BF named ANA! dont be shock.
we've been seeing each other like almost everyday.[NON-STOP HITS!]
hha.and i got to know this guy named HZQ.he is a great guy friend.
and ya, SHAHIDDIN.my really greatest guy friend!i hope 6 NOV will work out just fine between me and him.
DAAAN, jangan lupa FAUZI. itu confirm2 BF aku.haha. ira, jgn jealous yea.haha just kidding. but yaa, he is my best friend in sch and madrasah.
okay that's it for now. ohya, i almost forgot.
im going to be a malaysian citizen at the end of NOV. will be going to KL for holiday.i really can't wait... [JUMPING UP AND DOWN LIKE A MONKEY!]
hehe. okay toodles.
love,
ain
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3:18 PM