Wednesday, May 30, 2007
today doesnt seems good for me though.i have tried so hard to think positive for my everydays.but it doesnt seems worthy at all.i am me.me is my soul.my diary is my blog.my blog is my life.whatever harsh comments or remarks ive made here is up to me.i have come to a conclusion.i dont have anyone anymore.they are all gone from me.who am i suppose to turn to now?yesterday, i was on my own.i woke up in the morning and changed into school-based shirt.everyone in my family thought i went to school.i walked around and around.i felt....LONELY is the word.what i felt was abnormal.i felt oblivious to the surroundings.i almost died while i was crossing the road.what was i thinking?im not sure, either.i should be more careful and independent.ive always been independent but yesterday, the feeling overthrown me.maybe that will be the feeling when im in the other world.sighhh.life's getting dull for me.and for goodness sake's, its the hols.what am i suppose to do?ira will be on her vacation, amee im not sure (must be busy with SILAT), naja will be home this hols i guess.me?guess i dont have any plans this hols.will be going to the library often-my only time for peace.watching one or two movies.and ya, going to loiter around at any place u can think of with friends of course.*haha*im thinking about hooking up now.*hahahahaha*waddahell.guys,guys,guys.come out and grab girls.and when i say that, it means NOW!!!!*haha*im like feeling fuckedup now.just feel like mingling at the club and grab somebody.I WANT TO GROW UP!!!!!arghhh.*haha*am i behaving like a "tak-cukup-sifatnye" orang??waddahell.im smsing ira now.she will be disappearing like in....hmmm.im not good in math.waddahell.*hehe*what do i do?what do i do?hmmm.tomorrow's vesak day.HAPPY VESAK DAY TO ALL!enjoy ah.when you jolly2, go and lolly2.then when lolly2, go mind your doggy2.dig me,guys?waddahell.everyone seems so happy now.just not me.weelll, i see u soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon.taddaaaa. :]
{*If you want to get to the top in life,you are going to have to take the stairs.*}
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Saturday, May 19, 2007
i am BACKKKKKKKK! and BACCKKKK with more newssssss.count ok the S's!!*hehe*now,im watching "PUAKA TEBING BIRU" with my FAV sisters-kak fyra, kak yanie,kak sheila and kak faridah.the actresses are nasha aziz and umie aida.super hot-babes... :) anyway, i have a lot of problems. first,friends.secondly,me.thirdly,guys.friends are my darlings in my life.they are the 3 wonders of my life.-sofia, naja, amee.*wow*and not forgetting ira...haiz.felt that everything is different now.being with friends just bring me a whole new new experience everyday.there's always this tingly feeling when i'm with them.maybe its just me who feels this way.whatever it is,i had a fight with one of my friends.it didnt bring any benefit at all.except that some dont bother about her during the fight,esp me.whatever.and she's scared of me.funny or what?aiyooo.in malay i would say "kalau layan,salah.tak layan, pun salah."waddahell.well though it happened few weeks back,it is still fresh in my mind.whatever misunderstanding that took place, it was for the best.im not blaming anyone but, mostly its her.she started this fight actually.sometimes its best to know about the history.dont ever,ever say that history will always be in the past and noone will ever know.but if u look at the mistakes Singapore has made in the past,they are trying to look into the past and teach the young generation about their mistakes.see, what i mean?so in Islam, when u do not speak to your relatives or your closed ones for three days-IT IS A SIN!so i go and baek2 with her.so now?hmm,i guess we're ok. :] next about me.my exam results is so poor lor.kanasai ah!*hehe*all borderline.AND failed maths.waddahell!*haha*i will be going back to school for classes during the hols.math,poa,eng and art.can u believe it?ART??LIKE HELLO?!!im not an art student, but the teacher said she sees in me that im hardworking.*smiles gleefully*haha.tak tau malunye orang.and about guys.just got to know about this guy.name is izwann.16 years old and schools at dunearn sec.i have seen him like a gazillion times but didnt take notice.waddahell!so now...still dono which one lah.jasper helped me through the intro.thanks alot jas! :] i miss him lah.miss smsing him.but i dont know why he dont want to reply my messages anymore now.thinking about this makes me sad.im sorry if i have done anything wrong to u,iz...well,i have learnt my lesson.be more3 caring towards a guy.*haha*thats all for now guys.will be back for more juicy gossips for u all. :DD
{*Do it trembling if you must,but do it !*}
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