Wednesday, May 30, 2007
today doesnt seems good for me though.i have tried so hard to think positive for my everydays.but it doesnt seems worthy at all.i am me.me is my soul.my diary is my blog.my blog is my life.whatever harsh comments or remarks ive made here is up to me.i have come to a conclusion.i dont have anyone anymore.they are all gone from me.who am i suppose to turn to now?yesterday, i was on my own.i woke up in the morning and changed into school-based shirt.everyone in my family thought i went to school.i walked around and around.i felt....LONELY is the word.what i felt was abnormal.i felt oblivious to the surroundings.i almost died while i was crossing the road.what was i thinking?im not sure, either.i should be more careful and independent.ive always been independent but yesterday, the feeling overthrown me.maybe that will be the feeling when im in the other world.sighhh.life's getting dull for me.and for goodness sake's, its the hols.what am i suppose to do?ira will be on her vacation, amee im not sure (must be busy with SILAT), naja will be home this hols i guess.me?guess i dont have any plans this hols.will be going to the library often-my only time for peace.watching one or two movies.and ya, going to loiter around at any place u can think of with friends of course.*haha*im thinking about hooking up now.*hahahahaha*waddahell.guys,guys,guys.come out and grab girls.and when i say that, it means NOW!!!!*haha*im like feeling fuckedup now.just feel like mingling at the club and grab somebody.I WANT TO GROW UP!!!!!arghhh.*haha*am i behaving like a "tak-cukup-sifatnye" orang??waddahell.im smsing ira now.she will be disappearing like in....hmmm.im not good in math.waddahell.*hehe*what do i do?what do i do?hmmm.tomorrow's vesak day.HAPPY VESAK DAY TO ALL!enjoy ah.when you jolly2, go and lolly2.then when lolly2, go mind your doggy2.dig me,guys?waddahell.everyone seems so happy now.just not me.weelll, i see u soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon.taddaaaa. :]
{*If you want to get to the top in life,you are going to have to take the stairs.*}
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